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Breathing through ash, as I watch the lights pass
Through a lens distorted by sounds of a different life
Giving way to morning and thoughts of what could have been
What a sorry state
A sorry state I’m in
Now the colors bleed
The same faces don’t move me anymore
Soak in your memory
The only fix for me
But forward is forever
On a familiar path
Chasing echoes of the past
Searching for something I used to know
Reciting lines I’ve always known
Broken with sincerity
Now there’s nothing left for me
The sound of your voice reminds me that
This won’t last
Now the colors bleed
The same faces don’t move me anymore
Soak in your memory
The only fix for me
But forward is forever
Thoughts of you leave my head
I still feel how the air was then
The summer calls and autumn scoffs
Waiting for a greater spark
I still feel how the air was then
Now the colors bleed
The same faces don’t move me anymore
Soak in your memory
The only fix for me
But forward is forever
Now the colors bleed
The same faces don’t move me
(I still feel how the air was then)
Soak in your memory
The only fix for me
(I still feel how the air was then)
But forward is forever
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Eyes on isolated absent passengers
In scarlet transition
“Leave me to the sound of my own broken convictions”
I’ll release my being
And you’ll drive it down below
Misconceived bastard son
“This is all I know”
Take me and break away from everything before
Monument of stone
A cold reminder
I’ve been wearing thin
Caught between vomiting the right words the wrong way
Heavy on the dirt
Lower still
I’ve been wearing thin
Caught between the letdowns
While the earth is fracturing
Speak of fear
Broadcast it in the static
Tongues lashing out again
Will this moment ever be enough?
Monument of stone
A cold reminder
I’ve been wearing thin
Caught between vomiting the right words the wrong way
Heavy on the dirt
Lower still
I’ve been wearing thin
Caught between the letdowns
While the earth is fracturing
Bury your thoughts in half smoked cigarettes
Busy with the illusion of control
Line your cheeks with ash and the regret
Swear by the washouts and let it swallow you whole
Let it swallow you whole
Monument of stone
A cold reminder
I’ve been wearing thin
Caught between vomiting the right words the wrong way
Heavy on the dirt
Lower still
I’ve been wearing thin
Caught between the letdowns
While the earth is fracturing
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Feeling the pressure of this sustain
As the blood rushes out my face
A poison that saturates my veins
Broken words of an old refrain
If all we know is what we hide
So be the pain held deep inside
Stitched together, this sole confide
Let my soul give way to light
With the trust you took, you left a broken man
And now I question everything I am
Speaking truth from a hollow heart
I found myself in everything you're not
I’m paralyzed by the seasons change
I wish that they’d stay the same
Longing to remember, trying to forget
Mourning all the days I’m lost in my head
Lost in my head
I can’t stand the thought again
Of you running circles in my head
With the trust you took, you left a broken man
And now I question everything I am
Speaking truth from a hollow heart
I found myself in everything you're not
I’m torn between my pride
And a fear of the unknown
For you? For you, I tried
Now I’d rather be alone
With the trust you took, you left a broken man
And now I question everything I am
Speaking truth from a hollow heart
I found myself in everything you're not
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I still feel the space between us when I sleep
Waking up in cold sweat, torn apart from seam to seam
A bitter sting, so many things were left unsaid
And you're still stuck inside this whirlwind that you created in your head
Do you feel relief? Now that the feeling’s dead. I was always opened up to hope, but you went and made your bed
Your words are the secrets buried deep inside your soul
I can't break the wheel of time, only you can make you whole
Are you paranoid?
Maybe all your secrets spilling out my voice
Can free you from this
Are you paranoid?
Do you see my face when you close your eyes?
I’m sick and tired of holding back, when all you do is lie
To tell the truth, I always should’ve run from you
I can feel the pressure rising, pushing me to the top of the room
I feared the worst
Feelings lost inside my head
Afraid to pen this hurt
They’ll never go unsaid
Are you paranoid?
Maybe all your secrets spilling out my voice
Can free you from this
Are you paranoid?
I’ll sing a song you’ll never hear
Your head and heart were never there
With panicked breath, opened my eyes
In my head saw you again
I’ll sing a song you’ll never hear
Your head and heart were never there
With panicked breath
I found comfort with you again
If only in my head
Paranoid
Maybe all your secrets spilling out my voice
Can free you from this.
Are you paranoid?
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When the phone rings, I know
Cutting through the static
The tremble of a broken soul
Words don’t come easily
I don’t know what to say
I brace myself for tragedy
Why are you calling?
Maybe I am desperate now
Maybe I am broken down
I know this will come around
I know this will come around
Fearing the worst and I’m in my head
Letting go, and I’m spiraling
Save me from myself
Can you save me from myself?
Save me from myself
I was afraid once to lose you
From dust to dust, this suffering
Is this what the years will bring?
Now a distance I only imagined
What do we leave behind?
Lost in the voice of a silent room
I’ll stay with you
Maybe I am desperate now
Maybe I am broken down
I know this will come around
I know this will come around
Fearing the worst and I’m in my head
Letting go, and I’m spiraling
Save me from myself
Can you save me from myself?
Through slits above me, I see
A moment suspended and willing
An earnest heart in innocence, I knew
This is what the years would have for you
This is what the years would have for you
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I hear my name
Distant voices take me to a place I hate
I see your shadow
Your lore contains me
Always pulling me closer
I see through your masquerade
I see the mess you made
A burning fire you can’t contain
With every word, you make me break
You never want the real me
Just a fake
Pacing back and forth
Moving moments in desperation
The motion of a vacant man
I gave you everything I had
And now I fight to break away
I see through your masquerade
I see the mess you made
A burning fire you can’t contain
With every word, you make me break
You never want the real me
Just a fake
I could give you the world
But you’ll never know peace
I could give you the world
But you’ll never be free
I hope you're well in your suffering
I see through your masquerade
I see the mess you made
A burning fire you can’t contain
With every word, you make me break
You never want the real me
Just a fake
I see through your masquerade
I see the mess you made
A burning fire you can’t contain
With every word, you make me break
Forget the life I used to know
Let go
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I’ve got nothing here, I’ve got nothing home
A bitter lie inside my bones, the only truth I know
Cast into the grey, light drifting away
Aimless thoughts and idle hands, wandering yesterday
There’s no way back, no light left behind
But I need it, I need it
In a bad way, empty, fighting for my life
And I need it, I need it
Take me to the days, before the chaos and ache
Lines are marked by heavy thought and echoes of my shame
I’ve got nothing to give, I’ve got nothing to say
Now I burn my hope in the furnace of yesterday
There’s no way back, no light left behind
But I need it, I need it
In a bad way, empty, fighting for my life
And I need it, I need it
I hear a song in voices, a hope that is my chorus
I’ll walk until I find the light, I’ll carry on
There’s no way back, no light left behind
But I need it, I need it
In a bad way, empty, fighting for my life
And I need it, I need it
I’ll wander ‘til the dark is gone
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Lies on lies spilling out your lips
Copy and pasted magazine clips
Bloodshot eyes filled with ill intentions
Digital vagrant, digital vagrant
Sell yourself, no burden of proof
You’ve brazenly conflated the truth
You thought you had me fooled
You thought you had me fooled
You’re a liar, you’re a fake
And now I know that you’re all the same
Everybody will forget your name
Tell me all about how you’re so damn perfect
Shouting out everything you’re not
Everybody will forget your name
Manic intensive manipulation
Creeping dissimulation
Now I'm wise to your deception
Digital vagrant, digital vagrant
Oh, I see what’s going on
Convince yourself you’re never wrong, well
I’m not playing along
I’m not playing along
You’re a liar, you’re a fake
And now I know that you’re all the same
Everybody will forget your name
Tell me all about how you’re so damn perfect
Shouting out everything you’re not
Everybody will forget your name
I’d cut your eyes out to keep them from me
I'd sew your mouth shut to keep the words inside
And I’ll rip the mask you wear right from your skin
Now the world will finally see who you’ve always been
You’re a liar, you’re a fake
And now I know that you’re all the same
Everybody will forget your name
Tell me all about how you’re so damn perfect
Shouting out everything you’re not
Everybody will forget your name
You’re a liar, you’re a fake
And now I know that you’re all the same
Everybody will forget your name
Tell me how you’re so fucking perfect
Shouting out everything you’re not
Everybody will forget your name
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I found a new religion
That feeds on my addiction
It fills me up inside
It makes me feel alive
We make our own decisions
Set fire to our intentions
Oh, fill me up with lies
Make me feel alright
Prescribe the things that I need
There’s nothing wrong with being callous
(We remain unconscious)
And when there’s nothing to believe
We walk a tightrope we can’t balance
(And then it all comes crashing down)
We all wanna be free
But do we know what it means?
Bring me to my knees
(It’s so much better being numb)
We break apart from the seams
This is the life we lead
We buy into the deceit
It’s the American disease
I speak but you don’t listen
Built the walls to my own prison
I locked myself inside
The cage of my own mind
I make my own decisions
Set fire to my intuition
At least it gets me high
It makes me feel alive
Prescribe the things that I need
There’s nothing wrong with being callous
(We remain unconscious)
And when there’s nothing to believe
We walk a tightrope we can’t balance
(And then it all comes crashing down)
We all wanna be free
But do we know what it means?
Bring me to my knees
(It’s so much better being numb)
We break apart from the seams
This is the life we lead
We buy into the deceit
It’s the American disease
We choke on our pride
When faced with the truth
Tell me, what is the price?
When we’ve got everything to lose
Into the divide
We’ve lost ourselves
Now my palms start to sweat
And my knees to shake
We’re building a fever
How much more can we take?
I never wanted this
And now I’ll run from it
We all wanna be free
But do we know what it means?
Bring me to my knees
(It’s so much better being numb)
We break apart from the seams
This is the life we lead
We buy into the deceit
It’s the American disease
It’s the American dream
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An honest place where I never felt alone
I remind myself what it means to be home
Your voice would always carry me
Though burdened beneath responsibility
Honestly I didn’t know it
Someone to help me find a little bit of direction
Even when I didn’t know it
A splendid array
Of fractal insecurity
Broken lines through light decaying
Showing the way to find a little bit of direction
Even when you didn’t know it
As the sky falls down around me
Your words echo through
As the years fade, I'll carry on
With the love I always knew
The love I knew
I always knew
Staying out late, I’d keep you waiting
Looking back now, I didn't get it
The grey hairs and nail biting
I never thought my mistakes would even impact you at all
Your vision in my eyes is greater than that
Recalling those years I remember the best
You were the one to help me find a little direction
Thanks for waiting
As the sky falls down around me
Your words echo through
As the years fade, I'll carry on
With the love I always knew
The love I knew
I always knew
I will carry on
With your light shining through
You helped me find my own direction
Even when I didn’t know it
As the sky falls down around me
Your words echo through
The years fade, and I’ll hold on
To the love I always knew
The love I knew
I always knew
I will carry on
With your light shining through
As the sky falls down around me
Your words echo through
As the years fade, I'll carry on
With the love I always knew
The love I knew
I always knew
I will carry on
With your light shining through
You were the one to help me find a little direction
Even when you didn’t know it
Even when I didn’t know it
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Glimpses of the things we can recall
Dispersed among the pieces that I never mentioned at all
This time, a problem I cannot solve
Stare uncertainty in the eyes through a glass wall
Maybe a blank space to start something new
Or a message that I should’ve sent to you
As I’m asked to face the end
I think of all of the ends
Flashes of the past, I watch through the palms of my hands
They can pick and choose what they want to
I can leave the mark that I want to
As we begin again, do we repeat the process?
A breaking point
Where all I’m left with is silence
Maybe a blank space to start something new
Or a message that I should’ve sent to you
Where do I find the importance?
On an isolated throne I dwell on impermanence
After years, the words won’t matter
But the way these pages resonate
Gives me something to hope for
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